You told me that you'd be there for me whenever I needed you.
You lied.
You always lied. From the very first I love you.
It was all lies. It was all a trap. A trap to get me to open up and love.
So now I sit on the bathroom floor with my hands on my stomach.
Our unborn child moves under my hands.
Thoughts of death run through my head.
I think about taking a bunch of pills.
I think about leaving this world behind.
But then our son moves again. And brings me back to reality.
Your unborn son is the only thing that gets me through the days and nights without you.
I will teach him not to make the mistakes you made.
He will learn not to
i wake up and check to see if you've messaged me
i miss you so very much
you tell me that you love me but then you go and burn me to the ground
why?
why do u hurt me them comfort me
is this a sick game to you
if so i am tired of playin
tired of being a pawn in your game of love
i deserve better
but your ingraven in my heart
i guess i'll just have to figure this out on my own
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I want to grow old with you. I want to always be with you. I love you.